Freddy sang about "This thing called love", "I just can't handle it" " This crazy little thing called love...Love...for so many years I felt abandoned by love, abandoned and lost to wander aimlessly, alone.
Then something happened, something changed. A change I did not see...But change saw me..I find myself in love again...I ask myself "how did this happen, why did it happen, and will it happen? White Snake reminds of "Once Bitten Twice Shy" , and then I find myself back to where I started. Too many men have abused my heart and I let them on the chance of "A Crazy Little Thing Called Love" and again I find myself "Here I Go Again on my Own".
So what is this thing called love? Hormones, Dopamine, Seratonin, or simply a desire to feel loved, wanted, needed...
This crazy little thing called Love...
Sunday, September 17, 2017
Lions, Tigers and Bears oh my.....
As Dorothy walked down that yellow brick road.....As many of us do...walking down roads to paths that lead us to...Always the unknown...the most feared road of all...will we stumble and will we fall? Someone told me once "never expect"...meaning regardless of our expectations it will never be what we expect it to be...
And when I find myself wandering down a new path, am I expecting that which may or may never be? Will I find on this journey a path that leads back to me? Lions, and Tigers and Bears...
Oh my....
And when I find myself wandering down a new path, am I expecting that which may or may never be? Will I find on this journey a path that leads back to me? Lions, and Tigers and Bears...
Oh my....
Tuesday, June 28, 2016
Don't Look Back...
"Don't look back - a new day is breakin' it's been too long since I felt this way" Boston told us way back in the seventies. (Boston, 1978) And isn't that what it's all about? Going forward, moving ahead, not letting life consume your breath. An Angel once told Lot not to "look back" and look what happened there. What happens when we look back? What are we looking back at? Our selves? Our past? Mistakes, regrets, mishaps? What is it that keeps us in this state of mind?
When looking back, are we expecting to find that something has changed? That maybe we didn't see things the way we do now? Sometimes, it's hard to look back. Sometimes, looking back brings more heartache than pleasure. Sometimes, the grievances of our past can haunt us. And some time, any time, looking back to find answers.
When I look back, I find how much I have changed. How my state of mind has changed. How my past has reinvented my future. And isn't that what it's all about? The future? Moving ahead? Going forward? Yet how many times has the past controlled what I have thought I could change? The past is gone, but never forgotten.
A new day has broken, it's been too long since I've felt this way...
When looking back, are we expecting to find that something has changed? That maybe we didn't see things the way we do now? Sometimes, it's hard to look back. Sometimes, looking back brings more heartache than pleasure. Sometimes, the grievances of our past can haunt us. And some time, any time, looking back to find answers.
When I look back, I find how much I have changed. How my state of mind has changed. How my past has reinvented my future. And isn't that what it's all about? The future? Moving ahead? Going forward? Yet how many times has the past controlled what I have thought I could change? The past is gone, but never forgotten.
A new day has broken, it's been too long since I've felt this way...
Friday, December 4, 2015
Rite of Passage...
Rites of passage...What are rites of passage? Birth, Marriage, Death? Sweet 16? Adulthood of 18? Drinking age of 21? Fraternities humiliating new members? The list goes on...
A friend had told me recently that I am experiencing a "rite of passage" in my second career. So what is this rite of passage? Bullying, oppression just to name a few. So why is this meant as a "rite of passage"?
The individuals that I have had the most unpleasant experiences of these "rites of passage" makes me question - no - helps me to understand why people don't trust therapists. These women that I have had to endure countless times of being bullied, picked on, screamed at; these women who sorely lack the qualities of a good therapist: Compassion, Empathy, Understanding.
This leads me to wonder why they are in the field that they are in. If you can not have or find in your heart to have these abilities with those that you are mentoring, training, or working with - why are you there? Why do you feel you have the ability to show these very simple human qualities to those you call clients - yet not to those that work tirelessly, for free?
Is this truly a "rite of passage"? Or simply unhappy people that feel they have the right to pick on those who have yet to have achieved what they have (sic) licensing? Or is it really a matter of their own insecurities and lack of ability to own it?
Quite frankly, these "rites of passage" have only shown me one thing: that I would never want to be like this individuals that feel that they have the power to belittle others for the sake of their own inadequacies. That I know in my heart that I could never be like this because I have never been like this. Nor would I put someone through these horrendous situations.
"Rites of Passages"...
A friend had told me recently that I am experiencing a "rite of passage" in my second career. So what is this rite of passage? Bullying, oppression just to name a few. So why is this meant as a "rite of passage"?
The individuals that I have had the most unpleasant experiences of these "rites of passage" makes me question - no - helps me to understand why people don't trust therapists. These women that I have had to endure countless times of being bullied, picked on, screamed at; these women who sorely lack the qualities of a good therapist: Compassion, Empathy, Understanding.
This leads me to wonder why they are in the field that they are in. If you can not have or find in your heart to have these abilities with those that you are mentoring, training, or working with - why are you there? Why do you feel you have the ability to show these very simple human qualities to those you call clients - yet not to those that work tirelessly, for free?
Is this truly a "rite of passage"? Or simply unhappy people that feel they have the right to pick on those who have yet to have achieved what they have (sic) licensing? Or is it really a matter of their own insecurities and lack of ability to own it?
Quite frankly, these "rites of passage" have only shown me one thing: that I would never want to be like this individuals that feel that they have the power to belittle others for the sake of their own inadequacies. That I know in my heart that I could never be like this because I have never been like this. Nor would I put someone through these horrendous situations.
"Rites of Passages"...
Thursday, October 29, 2015
Tuesday, October 27, 2015
Liars and Lies...
Liars and lies - we all know them, most of us have been betrayed, lied to, cheated on by those that we put our trust in. I hate liars - to me they are not liars - but thieves as they still the trust that has been given to them.
But what makes people feel the need to lie? Low self esteem? Lack of confidence within themselves? Or just sheer narcissism? Whatever the case may be - lies - simple words can create damage that is just not repairable.
And what do these Liars hope to gain by their lies? Power over others? Really? If that is the case, I strongly suggest that these individuals take a second look at themselves. When you lie, you must create more lies to cover the first lie. What confusion! I, myself could never keep up with telling lies.
My most recent battle with a Liar has been most detrimental. This woman decided to lie about me.
And when her lie was discovered, she had another person (who should have known better, considering she is an attorney) try to seek out more information about me in which to better her lies.
And to tie it up with a big ribbon bow? - The one person that I respected (clearly I no longer do) collaborated these lies. Shame on you!
In the words of Shakespeare: "To thine ownself be true"...
But what makes people feel the need to lie? Low self esteem? Lack of confidence within themselves? Or just sheer narcissism? Whatever the case may be - lies - simple words can create damage that is just not repairable.
And what do these Liars hope to gain by their lies? Power over others? Really? If that is the case, I strongly suggest that these individuals take a second look at themselves. When you lie, you must create more lies to cover the first lie. What confusion! I, myself could never keep up with telling lies.
My most recent battle with a Liar has been most detrimental. This woman decided to lie about me.
And when her lie was discovered, she had another person (who should have known better, considering she is an attorney) try to seek out more information about me in which to better her lies.
And to tie it up with a big ribbon bow? - The one person that I respected (clearly I no longer do) collaborated these lies. Shame on you!
In the words of Shakespeare: "To thine ownself be true"...
Monday, August 3, 2015
I Can't Get No Satisfaction...
"Cause I can't get no - no satisfaction", so sang Mick Jagger. Satisfaction is always guaranteed by any bullshit media ad. But really - is it about obtaining satisfaction? Or is it merely expectations. Expectations that we hope to be met.
Expectations - the biggest crime you can commit against yourself. I have learned that over and over. I tell my friends that having expectations can drive you to an early grave. It is when we expect things, i.e. everything's going to work out; that awesome dude is someday gonna call; I know I got the job...It is this and many other things that people expect. And what happens when those expectations are not met?
I know for myself that by having expectations, I am setting myself up for failure. Why? People are unpredictable, circumstances can change, life is ever changing. When society learns to stop expecting things, i.e. "keeping up with the jones", "everyone owes me something", etc. maybe we as a species can do the same.
Without expectations? Loss of worrying about things you have no control over. No disappointments needed, no loss of any kind really. And when your ship does come in, and you are not waiting like a fool at the dock - that is when life becomes exciting as well as your own.
I don't expect to have a million dollars. I don't expect to meet the man of my dreams. I don't expect my dream job. What I do expect of my self is: patience, endurance and love...
Just because I can't get no - satisfaction
Doesn't' mean I can't be happy...
Expectations - the biggest crime you can commit against yourself. I have learned that over and over. I tell my friends that having expectations can drive you to an early grave. It is when we expect things, i.e. everything's going to work out; that awesome dude is someday gonna call; I know I got the job...It is this and many other things that people expect. And what happens when those expectations are not met?
I know for myself that by having expectations, I am setting myself up for failure. Why? People are unpredictable, circumstances can change, life is ever changing. When society learns to stop expecting things, i.e. "keeping up with the jones", "everyone owes me something", etc. maybe we as a species can do the same.
Without expectations? Loss of worrying about things you have no control over. No disappointments needed, no loss of any kind really. And when your ship does come in, and you are not waiting like a fool at the dock - that is when life becomes exciting as well as your own.
I don't expect to have a million dollars. I don't expect to meet the man of my dreams. I don't expect my dream job. What I do expect of my self is: patience, endurance and love...
Just because I can't get no - satisfaction
Doesn't' mean I can't be happy...
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