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The following poetry is true. The names have been changed to protect me.
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Wants, Needs and Reality

"You can't always get what you want...but if you try sometimes, you get what you need" so says Mick Jagger.

So what is it about wants, the innate human desire to have, possess and covet all things that fancy our eyes and desires? And the best wants are the ones we can't have. The ones that are either just out of reach or are just not reachable. What is that driving force within that makes us pursue these wants with a fiery passion that can sometimes can consume us; and sometimes bring us to our knees. Could we be innately masochistic? Or is this Freud's famous "id" that has run amok.

And when we don't get what we want, can we be happy with getting what we need? I think it was innately put in us to confuse wants and needs. Because when we say we need something, what we are really saying is that we want it. Needs are too basic, seemingly unattractive because it can be met. Wants creates needs, but which need is better than the other? If we look at our needs at on a primitive level, it doesn't seem appealing. There is something about the chase of the want; the desired want that sparks and creates a life in an of it self. A life that will only be distinguished when it is either obtained or the need was met. Maybe not the way you plan, but it is still met. The reality is that in today's society we are bombarded by what the media tells us we should want, why we want it and if we don't get it that we must not be enough, or have enough.

And maybe reality is Freud’s "ego" and "superego" dancing to make the need met. And once met, we look back at the lost want and realize what we wanted really isn't what we needed. And yet when that "id" raises it's mischievous ideas, the cycle begins again.

And if we decide to pursue an unattainable want, one can always rely on the "id" defense...

Anything's possible

A Blast from the Past...

Boston once sang, "Don't look back, a new days waiting - its been too long since I felt this way. So basically telling us to leave the past where it is. So why is it that when the past comes back and smacks you upside your head, leaving you to wonder of the ultimate question of "why now"? And what is it about the past that can make one shiver with fear or beam with delight?  My past...scary sometimes to think of just that - smacked me upside my head - well not literally, but it did come a knocking at my door a few weeks ago.

And upon answering the door - I found an old boyfriend from so many years ago I don't want to think about. And it wasn't so much that yes he is an old boyfriend, but more of his attachment to his past with me. A past I could live without being reminded of. Not that it was all bad per se, but considering now he lives next door to me with a girlfriend who knows this past...yeah..that's not good. I really don't feel the need to rehash the past with he or his current girlfriend, but he likes to...

Lately a lot of old boyfriends from the past seem to be popping up out of nowhere and leaves me to question my past loves. Most are amazed that I am single without kids. Not so amazing really - just don't need excess baggage in my life thanks all the same. But it also leads me to wonder if I missed something from the past that I am not seeing now. Or maybe I am missing something from the past?

So why does the past haunt us with melancholy, of days gone by? Is there something that still must be learned from the past? Is the past telling me that I made the right decisions in my life or are there decisions that I could have made that would have made my life different than what it is today?

One thing for sure, I am pretty sure that this relationship would have never worked out, as I am with many of my past relationships. But it makes me wonder if that is what the past is telling me - to stop looking at the past and find a new dawn awaiting me.

My past truly haunts me...

The Rivers of My Heart

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Generation "Entitlement"

I've often wondered how and why generations are named; and why it is that the preceding generation receives this honor. Is it to be a reminder of the past? Of things that need remembering? Or is it simply a way of retaining on this tradition for future generations?
Personally, I liked when generations were referred to as "ages". Such as "The Gilded Age" or the "Victorian Age", and the Progressive Age.

My generation is the byproduct of the "Summers of Love" age, so I'm guessing I am of the age of "Over Indulgence". My nephews and nieces are part of the "X" Generation as well as the onset of the "Me" Generation. Yet the one that baffles me most is the Generation of "Entitlement".
What I find most interesting about this particular time is that it doesn't appear to be age limited. Matter of fact, I believe anyone can join the bandwagon and participant within the "Generation of Entitlement". And it appears that many have done just that.

But what I don't get is why do these individuals believe themselves "entitled", and what exactly are they entitled to? We are all entitled to "Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness" - but to what extent and to whose extent? Can we then say we have the right to pursuit happiness at the expense of others because we are entitled? And then, does integrity and justice have a place in "Generation Entitlement" ? If we claim that we have integrity we can not claim entitlement; that is for those that feel that the Universe owes them and owes them big time. Yet again with - and what exactly are you entitled to and why should it concern me? Really?

And although I know I am entitled to certain privileges, I do not abuse these nor would I want to. I have integrity. I know I am entitled to live my life as I choose, to live where ever I may, to come and go as I please; yet I do not feel that I am owed anything else in this life.

Because at the end of every day (some wise person said this somewhere) no one can change the outcome of their day, for destiny will always prevail.

Regardless of your sense of "entitlement".