The Valley of the Shadow of Death...

"Yea, thou I walk through the valley of the shadow death, I will fear no evil" - once said by King David. Walking through the valleys of life, can sometimes prove to be a most wondrous of jouney's and others not so much. And how do we find our ways when the path is not so bright and wonderous?

I found myself wondering that for a while now. And why sometimes we must walk that same faithful walk of King David. How do we get to the other side? And once there will we be ok? Will we be able to be the person we were prior to this walk, or are we fated to become someone new? Yet the most interesting question is "why did we have to take this walk - one that at the very most uncertain"?

As I walked through this valley, which had been darken by death - I could not be sure of anything. I prayed to ancient diety to save me. But did they? Or was it simply just a universal fear of an Unforeseen God that saved me? What ever the case may be - I had to walk it one last time.

Although in retrospect, maybe I needed to do so in order to bring not just this, but other valleys to light as well. Life is funny that way; slam the past right into your face to force you to look at that which you choose not to see.

It started with a TV show that is shown only on Flix I started watching. The show is about a woman who has a "last chance" Angel who was sent to save her from the valley of death she chose to walk through. I am not a religious individual; but I do claim to be spiritually based in faith. As the show progressed, so did my renewed walk through my valley of the shadow of death, but not by choice of my own or doing.

And what I found was great release as well as relief. So many things that needed to be said, so many things that need to be brought into the light.So many secrets of abuse I was keeping to myself. While telling myself that it was ok, I'd find a way out. Yet the way it came about was so unique yet so intense. Why do we choose to keep such secrets - everyone does. Secrets that can have such a devastating effect on us.

During my journey through the darkest valley of death, there was only one aspect of my life that I had utter and complete control over and once that control was threaten - it threatened my very existence. I was shattered and unable to find a way to eleviate this madness. So I had decided to remove myself from this valley and found myself being removed from others as well.

I remembered one day, driving home and thinking about an episode I had reently had seen where Earl the Angel sought help from fellow angels to find his charge. They had created an energy force that touched everyone who knew this woman. Tbe looks on the faces of those touched - how I longed to feel the presence of an angels wings ladened with the love of God. As I pondered this very Hollywood aspect of the Divine, I found myself bathed in the most warm and loving light; while driving down the 405. It was the closest I had ever felt to the Divine, God, my God, the God I have know since childhood.

And then everything changed...

"And yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death", never again will I fear evil...